Adjusting to some of the big Lupus no-nos has been an, erm… well an adjustment. The biggest one, and I think for obvious reasons, is trying to stay out of the sun. It used to be a regular thing that I would take Makaila to the park behind our house, and we would swing and slide for as long as our little hearts desired. I only successfully ventured back to the park as a new mom-of-2 with Cohen in tow a handful of times before I got sick, and unfortunately we haven’t been back again (during daylight hours) since the appointment with my Rheumatologist.
We also have a membership to the Phoenix Zoo, which we would normally be all over now that the weather is cooler, but alas, that also has gone out the window. But it’s not all bad, and I am however super stoked to take the kids to Zoo Lights this year, but there is definitely a grieving over the loss of some of our favorite day-to-days. Staying indoors all the time tends to make us a bit stir crazy. Not to say I can’t ever take the kids to the park again- it’s just not the same pick-up-and-go thing that it used to be. Now it’s a sunscreen-infused, 20 minute tops, don’t-forget-the-long-sleeves-and-wide-brimmed-hat-or-else-you-might-die, thing. Which I have yet to brave, but perhaps I will soon.
And speaking of sunlight killing me, did I mention I also have to cut garlic out of my diet? Why is that you ask? Oh, well, because I’m a real life vampire. That’s my logical conclusion anyhow, because why else couldn’t I eat garlic or be exposed to the sun? According to the “scientific community,” since my already overly excited immune system would be stimulated more by the immune-boosting supplement that garlic is, the end results would be totally counterproductive. Thus a potential flare, yadda yadda yadda. Or so they say. Well played, doctors. Either way, I’m pretty dang sad about it. Garlic is in like, ev.er.y.thing, especially the way that my family and I eat, so that’s another difficult thing to get used to. That being said, if you know of a versatile herb or spice to cook with, or have a delicious garlic-free recipe, please do share! I’m running out of dinner ideas fast.
Some really great things have been happening though, too. A fun family tradition that we started some time ago, but that is becoming increasing dear to my heart, is a nighttime event we call “Pajama Walks.” A few times a week, after we’ve eaten dinner, brushed our teeth, and put on our pajamas, the 4 of our get bundled up and go out on an evening stroll before bed. This is a fabulous way for Kevin and me to unwind and engage with one another about our days, as well as get some (super) leisurely exercise. Lately our destination has been the park, which we can ALL enjoy because it’s DARK and no evil-UV rays are out to get me. Makaila goes down the “cool slide” as she calls it, and then begs for her Poppa to swing next to her on the swing set. I take pictures and we all laugh, and I get to feel normal. Like a regular wife and momma and not like that girl whose life got really complicated from an autoimmune disease. And that is a sweet, sweet thing. Recently we’ve been walking by the bay that our condo complex sits on, so that we can spend time staring at the Christmas lights reflecting off the water. And you KNOW I love that. Here are a couple photos from our last pajama walk.
Jammies and boots. Stinkin’ adorable.
And here is one of my drooly little blogging co-pilot tonight, just because he’s so dang cute.
Another really great and normal-feeling thing happened today, and that was when I got to spend time with my lovely friend this afternoon. We watched a redboxed movie about preggos and babies, day drank a glass of wine, ate sugary snacks, and talked, all of which was essentially a celebration of the foundations of our friendship, whilst our 4 precious little ones napped. This is something (minus the day drinking) that used to happen regularly in our lives. I know it’s not the most monumental (or healthiest) sounding day ever, but it felt so liberating to just relax with my friend after being cooped up for the last couple months, aside from the small handful of well planned out outings and monday morning mom’s groups I’ve attended. Although I was pretty tired for having skipped what’s become a fairly regular nap time for me, it was so great to have such informal face time with my dear friend. Like the good ol’ days. Today really felt like tangible evidence that there will be normalcy again in my life. Sun or no sun. Garlic or no garlic. Vampire or not. Life doesn’t always have to feel so different. And although I totally trust the Lord and I believe I’ve come to terms with having a chronic illness, it’s really nice to feel like some things actually haven’t changed at all.